My forever Queen

Message for my Queen,
Congratulations for being the AKB48 queen 2018. Your efforts and hardwork has already been rewarded. You’ve work so hard in your 10 years in the group. There are people who keep on telling on how selfish you are but in reality, you sacrifice a lot of things and even opportunity because of your love to the whole 48group. Even there are people who are ignorant with this, there are also a lot of fans like me, who knows every efforts and sacrifices you made.

I always love the Jurina who always give her 120% efforts. I always love the Jurina who doesn’t afraid to express her true self and feelings, didn’t care what other people will say or think, as long as long people will view the real you. I always love the Jurina who love dancing more than anything. I always love the Jurina who keeps on taking care of her juniors. But, you are someone that should also be taking care of. 

As you face this kind of challenge, I am hoping that this situation will make you stronger and more mature. I will wait for you no matter how long. I will always support you. I will always be your fan. Wherever you are, whatever path you choose, I will follow you.


AKB48 48th single

Interesting! JuriSaku as Wcenter.

I am kinda excited as Jurina being one of the center of AKB48 48th single(Negaigoto no mochigusare). I am very proud of her.

She looks beautiful and elegant, as always. As expected from the SKE48’s ace.

I don’t mind what other people say, I love this single and I find it amusing as Jurina is the center(with Sakura).

The song and PV is very meaningful. One of the reason why I am a 48group fan, they always make the PVs meaningful and worth watching whoever the center is.

Thank you for making Jurina and Sakura as the center this time.

Congratulation JuriSaku! 

Who is the deserving center?

Honestly, everyone have different answer for this. I should say my oshi is the deserving one while others may say their oshi is much deserving. We also have different reason.

I actually can’t see any members that can replace Acchan in being the ace (same thing for Jurina in SKE and Sayanee in NMB). But I think every members deserve to be the center whether they are being push or not.

There were also time that I was being bitter and hate a members for a moment because they were chosen to be the center and not my oshi. Of course, I want the best for her. But after the last year election, I realized something and ask these three question to myself.

  • Why should I hate a member just because she was chosen as the center?
  • Why should I hate a member just because my oshi was not in her place?
  • Why should I hate a member just because she was being push than my oshi?

Those things doesn’t change anything.

Her position doesn’t change how much I love and support her.The centers doesn’t change how much I love the group. Being my oshi as the center or not, I should be proud for the group and for the members. 

Whether they were being push or not, whether they were chosen as the center or not, whatever their position is. Our members have their own way to prove theirselves and we also have our own way to support them. So let us trust their capabilities and keep on support them. 

How did you become a fan of your idol/Oshi/bias?

I say we became a fan of something or someone in a certain degree or level at some point of ourlives. Maybe you’re not super addicted to it but I bet you got hooked to it for atleast once..and as for us, we have our oshi (Jpop term of idol) or bias (Kpop term of idol) , that we treasure really dearly in our heart. 

Have you ever wonder and look back to your past and ask yourself, “how did I become a fan?”

I have here a list of few common stories of a journey from a simple human being to an extraordinary fan girling and fan boying life! 😉

Influenced by someone close to you..

Surprise? I bet no. How many of us here that become a fan because of your sister,brother ,cousin, friend of friend and etc is a fan too? Maybe they suggested you a music video or a song that got you to your bones and trapped you from there. Yeah! I heard that a lot.

Interest in music, dancing or singing..

I believe that all of fan has a dancer and or a singer inside their sleves. The artist in them is awaken by these idols that’s why they look them up as their senpai/sunbae (senior) as they aspire to become an idol themselves. Some pursue that dream but some just sleep to it to dream abt it. LOL.

And finally,

Broken heart

Not so common huh? Believe me, it is a common ride of a fan girl/boy. They might not admit it but the disappointment and heartaches of life ,love and their surroundings made them turn to pick an idol. Idols are breath of fresh air to a broken soul and a light of hope in their heart.

So, how did you become a fan of who?

©J and K Blog Sun

Comment your favorite band, your idol name and a brief story on how you become a fan.. Wiiie! I’m excited to hear from you’ll.

Different versions of Jurina

Jurina as a yankee in Majisuka Gakuen 1 and 2

Jurina as a prisoner in Majisuka Gakuen 3

Jurina as a nurse in Majisuka Gakuen 4

Jurina as a gangster in Majisuka Gakuen 5.

Jurina as a vampire in Crow’s Blood.

Jurina as an hostess in Cabasuka Gakuen

and Jurina as a wrestler in Tofu Pro Wrestling.


Which version of Jurina do you prefer?



”Did you hear about it?”

“About what?”

“Sayanee will not participate in this year’s Senbatsu Election.”

“Really? But why?”

Jurina over heard some members chatting about her rival. She is just sitting alone in silence while others are busy talking ang giggling around. Though she is good at making friends, there are times like this one that she likes to be alone.

“Do you think she will graduate?” again, she heard one of them.

This is like deja vu. Nowadays, one of the sign that the member is hinting her graduation announcement is to not participate to election.

Will she graduate? Is this her sign?

She can’t help but to think of someone who have done this two years ago. This is exactly how Rena hints her graduation. Now she can’t stop thinking about that someone. Her face, her smile, her scent, especially on how beautiful she was, in her graduation. It breaks her heart into pieces. She tried to smile in front of her, in front of the members, in front of the fans.

“As the ace, I can’t show any weakness.” She said in silence during the graduation ceremony but then she failed.

She cried in her handshake event and in front of fans. She ended up crying in the arms of the members.

Why do I remember this ? Silly!

Her thoughts are interrupted as Yuihan sit besides her. “Sayanee will not participate in this coming election. Hmm, so..What do you think?” Yuihan fires the question as soon as she sits down.

“Huh? I don’t know. I don’t mind. Really.” Jurina said shifting her gaze to Yuihan.

“But I’m not surprise tho. How about you? You are close to her , right?” She ask her back. Jurina knows that Yuihan deeply cares about her.

“I’m hoping she will not graduate. Ricchan and Paruru’s graduation are heartbreaking . So if Sayanee graduates…..” she can’t continue her words as tears fell through her eyes.

Jurina stares at her. She don’t like it. She don’t want to see it. She don’t want to see herself through other members.

“I know how you feel.” She said but immediately stood up. “I’ll just go to the dressing room.” then, she starts to walk away.

She saw Sayanee walking in her direction. Sayanee stares at Jurina who is also staring at her. They stop walking as they are in front of each other.

“Why aren’t you participating in Senbatsu? What are your plans? Will you graduate?”  Those are the words that Jurina is dying to say but the silence remains.

“Congratulation for being the next center of AKB48 single.” Those are Sayanee’s thoughts but can’t utter any word to say it.

Come on , Jurina! Just talk to her, ask your concerns, you can do it normally just like with the other members.

Come on, Sayanee! Just congratulate her, She will appreciate it.

Both their innerselves confronted them.

”Ahh .. nno” Jurina finally broke the silence.

” Yes?”

Otsukaresama! (thanks for a good job).” Jurina formally greet her.

Ugh! I can’t do it normally.

O-Otsukaresama!” Sayanee replied. She can’t do it normally either.

They continue to stare at each other for a while. It seems like that there are a lot of things they want to talk about. Thoughts and concerns that should be expressed but they can never speak out loud.

Without any words being said, they continue to walk away with each other with these thoughts in their head ,

(A/N : Bold font for Jurina’s thoughts while italic font for Sayanee’s thoughts . If it’s bold and italic at the same time, it means they have the same thoughts)

I want to talk to her.

I want to show how I admire her.

Everything about her is adorable.

I want to show that I care.

I respect her.

I’m thankful and honor that she consider me as her rival, equal rival.

She’s the greatest rival I ever had. I love that girl.

Those were the beautiful words that just goes in vain because of the wall between them called RIVALRY

When will it break? Hmm.. No one knows. And until then, they will never know that they have the same thoughts. They have the same desires. They have the same feelings.